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    Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
    9:02 pm
    This station is non-operational
    Does anyone still use this? I haven't even checked this shit in over a year ... Maybe I should update this again on a semi-regular basis.
    Monday, June 4th, 2007
    8:59 am
    I am a homeowner
    Pics coming soon!
    Thursday, March 8th, 2007
    9:31 pm
    Quite possibly my last post ever...
    So a lot has changed with me over the past couple months since I last updated this thing. I'm not really sure where to start so I'll just pick one and go from there.

    I'm buying a home. I signed all of the loan paperwork today, and I close on June 1st. It's a nice 1850sq ft condo in East Windsor (Approximately here) Closing is on June 1st and I'm quite excited. NO MORE RENTING!! It's got a finished basement, central air/hear, 1.5 bath, all new appliances. I'm pleased.

    I have a girlfriend. I signed all of the paperwork today, and she arrives here from Russia on June 1st. no no no no, not really. Her name is Stephanie and we met about 2 years ago when she was going to Conn College (the more embarrassing story involves myspace but I won't mention that). She currently lives in Brooklyn but I think she may have plans to eventually move back this way. We'll see what happens :) So far, things are A M A Z I N G. So there!

    I have some Jack Daniels. And I am getting drunk. (short story)

    So this is probably my last post. I read back on a lot of what I've written here, and well, it was a different me at the time... filled with a lot of anger, alcohol, drugs, and bitterness. It's served its purpose but it's time to move on. I'll probably end up updating my myspace or facebook profile more, but I think this may be at an end. If anyone on here really wants to get in touch with me, I can be reached at
    this email.

    Thanks all. It's been fun!

    Current Mood: drunk
    Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
    11:20 pm
    Why hell thar
    Hell there Livejournal... It's been a while.

    So what's been new with me? quite a bit I might say. I've moved to Wethersfield, CT to be closer to work. It's quite a large townhouse... plenty of room for me and my two cats. And well... yeah, thats about all thats new with me. So I guess I lied when I said there was a lot new.

    I'm still single. Mostly by my own volition. I dated a little but for the most part women around here irritate me. I don't think I'll find someone I truely connect with in CT... Just not the right demographic maybe? Or maybe it's the lack of social places... Hartford just isn't boston. Driving to and from bars just doesn't work. So yeah... i miss boston. and the boston girls.

    I'm currently in a mega turkey coma. need sleeps. and maybe i will update this again soon.
    Wednesday, September 20th, 2006
    7:54 pm
    Tuesday, September 19th, 2006
    11:03 am
    bloody hell
    So I just gave blood again for the second time and I found out my Blood Type. A POSITIVE

    I don't know why but this excited me... I've never known my blood type.
    Saturday, September 9th, 2006
    1:51 pm
    My Interests Collage!Collapse )
    Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424
    Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
    11:48 pm
    oh man GAY
    I'm calling this entry gay because my last post was about hanging out with krizteen and now this entry is about hanging out with krizteen this weekend. YOU THINK I MIGHT LIKE THIS GIRL OR SOMETHING. So anyway, I drove out to visit K-teen and meet her roommate Linds. Lindsay is absolutely insane, but in a tiny cute kinda way. However she is way obsessed with pooping (but we all secretly are so its ok). I also met Rhosie and Eleanor ZOMG CUTE PUPS. They totally loved on me and had a shed fest all over my shirts but i didnt mind. We (not including the pups) went to Boston and walkkkkked and walkkkkked. I was looking forward to margaritas with dinner but these 2 girls got all whiney and tired so we peaced out but only after watching the troupe of dancing kunta kinte's. It was a fun time AND I CANT WAIT TILL WE DO IT AGAIN.

    Hopefully I'll be having some sorta get together soon at my place. I can't really call it a party because I don't think that many people will fit, plus i'd imagine it would be kinda boring until I get the place situated and have enough people to invite over. But then again if i'm fully stocked up on booze the party will make itself. plus there might be conflicting hos at the place who all WANT A PIECE and they may have fight it out. PSHHH. :(

    shit i need to go to bed work in the morning ughhhhhhhhhhHHH.

    Current Mood: tired
    Sunday, August 6th, 2006
    1:26 am
    holy hurrrrrrrrrrr
    so i just came back from a "date". i use that term loosely because who i went out with has been like my secret love for ... 6 years or so? HOLLA krizteen!! o_O

    so i drove ALL THE WAY TO RHODE ISLAND (only like 50 mins) and met her at her place( which is cute, but her roommate totally got boned on the smaller room) and we took for for BALD HILL (wtf). There are tons of mall attractions and resturants, so we went to eat at Olive Garden. HOLY SHIT they give you tons of food. HUGE ASS SALAD and tons o bread sticks. it was quite the meal. Then we went off to the movies to watch Pirates2. Awesomes movie by the way. Then wtf, it was like midnight and we're old people and got tired. So off I went back home, but only after being LIKE THE HAPPIEST DUDE EVER! seriously, long lost love for the winz!! no really, i was smiling like this:

    ^______________________________^ <-- phat smilez

    Current Mood: happy
    Sunday, July 9th, 2006
    11:05 pm
    oh snap
    so i've gotten myself into quite a predictament (but its a good one)... I went to Bob's discount furniture to look at furniture for when I move, but I got so excited about everything that I put about $4000 worth of stuff on layaway. Now I just need to find an apartment to move into and have the shit delivered.

    shit i got if you are interestedCollapse )
    Thursday, June 29th, 2006
    2:27 pm
    Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
    1:06 pm
    dinosaurs speek truth

    Current Mood: working
    Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
    9:06 pm
    It's that time again...
    Yes, I speak of that time for new computers! The current one I have (AMD 2ghz) currently no longer cuts it, and after the serious overheating issue I suffered this weekend, performance is at an even more degredaded state (cpu heatsink fan clogged with dust, cpu temp spike to 170*). So I poked around, and decided to build myself a new monster and turn the old one into a server2003 box. This time i'm going 64 bit, and Dual Core (and yes, it's Vista ready!) Ung. Details posted below for the geeksCollapse )

    Current Mood: excited
    Friday, April 28th, 2006
    1:52 pm
    Thursday, April 27th, 2006
    10:28 pm
    detroit ... rock city

    So june11th - 16th I will be in Detroit for business.  Does anyone have any clue what there is to do in Detroit?  I've never been there except as a stop over in the airport... and that wasn't too exciting.

    I guess I'll find out.

    Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
    10:30 pm
    a tribute to Bukowski?
    a withering rose
    wilting away
    another petal falls
    each passing day

    each petal fallen,
    pieces stripped away,
    while the flower may disappear,
    the roots always stay

    the flower much like a book,
    not forgotten on it's close,
    Ma cambiera stagione,
    ci saranno nuove rose

    I'm calling this a tribute to bukowski because i wrote it now, while slightly drunk.  and i'm going to dedicate it to my friend Stephanie, who ultimately was the inspiration for it.  Plus she brought the last two lines to my attention quite some time ago. For those not keen on their italian, the last two lines translated is "the season will change, there will be new roses"

    Current Mood: drunk
    Thursday, April 20th, 2006
    9:41 am
    yuo aer job?
    There is a direct opening available at my work, in my group actually, for a 2nd or 3rd shift engineer. General responsibilities will be SMS network maintenance, login script changes, software packaging and distributions. This is located in Hartford, CT

    Leave me a comment or email me yr resume if interested.

    Current Mood: working
    Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
    9:57 pm

    So for the past week I've been in Virginia visiting with my father and my brother and sister on their spring break.  The weather was beautiful and I got to do a lot of stuff.  I even went horseback riding.  (it's been years, but I still remember how) so that was fun.  I ended up smoking an incredible amount of weed, but it doesn't help when your father gives it to you.  Also the first time I got high with my sister, which while weird, wasn't completely odd considering our father and how we were raised.

    Lets see, what else is new with me.  I'm in the process of buying a condo...  and when i say process i mean i spoke with a realtor and i'm finalizing the documents for getting a mortgage approved.  I found an awesome condo in Newington, but it sold before I could get the ball rolling on the whole mortgage deal.  Now I'm looking at anything north of Norwich and South of hartford along Route2.  Hopefully I can find something reasonable...  The costs involved are insane and while I have been saving my money for a year, I still don't quite have enough as I would like to bring to the table.  But we'll see.  Who knows, maybe I can find a girlfriend by then and have her help me pay the mortgage.  Lolz0r  :(

    Tomorrow is my birthday.  I'm unsure of how I feel about this.  I wish I had more to say about what has happened to me since my last birthday, but the only real good thing that has happened since then was I got a job.  Oh, and I bought a new car.  Yay me.  :\

    P.S. speaking of birthday happenings, Saturday night at Margaritas in Mystic is the unofficial birthday celebration for me.  All are welcome.  Comment here for more details.

    Current Mood: sleepy
    10:55 am
    Dear Livejournal,
    I realize that I have neglected you for quite sometime, and I must apologize for it was not on purpose. My life has sort of hit a rut and nothing of consequence has happened to me lately. I plan to change my habits and write in here more often, and while it may not particularly have much to do with me or my life directly, I need to write as it has always been a part of me.


    Current Mood: working
    Monday, February 27th, 2006
    11:04 am
    So after consulting peoples in Boston, it appears next weekend would not be the best weekend as many people will not be present. So currently the plan is rescheduled for 2 weeks later as the weekend after i am on call. Yuck.

    But at least more people will be in town!
    Friday, February 24th, 2006
    8:54 am
    I will be taking next friday off from work and will be spending my long weekend in Boston. I expect to see many of you over the course of those 3 days. Drinking, crazyness, and general insanity will persue. Keep your calendars free.
    Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
    10:31 am
    action required
    For the past week and a half, I have listened to the same 2 songs over and over on repeat while at work:

    American Football - Never Meant
    Bright Eyes - Lover I Don't Have to Love

    Consequently this has had quite the negative impact on my morale and mental health. I require immediate assistance in suggesting a few new good songs to listen to of any time period and of any genre. Hell, you can even offer even more depressing music and maybe I’ll just off myself or start using drugs full time again.

    Thanks for this.

    Current Mood: blank
    Friday, December 30th, 2005
    1:18 pm
    Interesting events that occured on my birthday
    April 19th: (taken from Wikipedia

    1775 - American Revolutionary War: The Battle of Lexington and Concord – British General Thomas Gage attempts to confiscate American colonists' firearms. Captain John Parker orders his band of minutemen to not fire unless fired upon. Random shots rang out among the British soldiers. The minutemen promptly fired back. This was the "shot heard round the world." The British are driven back to Boston, Massachusetts, thus beginning the American Revolutionary War.

    1892 - Charles Duryea claims to have driven the first automobile in the United States, in Springfield, Massachusetts.

    1938 - RCA–NBC begins regular television broadcasts.

    1943 - World War II: In Poland, German troops enter the Warsaw ghetto to round up the remaining Jews, beginning the Warsaw Ghetto Uprising.

    1943 - Bicycle Day – Swiss chemist Dr. Albert Hofmann deliberately takes LSD for the first time.

    1971 - Charles Manson is sentenced to life in prison for the Sharon Tate murders.

    1995 - Oklahoma City bombing: The Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma, USA, is bombed, killing 168.

    2005 - Joseph Ratzinger elected Pope Benedict XVI on the second day of the Papal conclave.

    Current Mood: bored
    Thursday, December 15th, 2005
    10:34 pm
    so he writes - last option.
    keeps him cornered in.
    the need for more stays pressing,
    but he can't force the pen.
    for every blot of ink a word is lost. . .pierced skin/new melody
    and if these lines stay blank. . . they'll lead to no where.

    under his breath:
    "like guests and presidents,
    his words were not welcome where they could not stay."
    their arguments plotted concentric circles
    ending up bulls-eyes over his ribcage.

    i need to believe in these dripping organs sutured to my sleeves.
    I want to scream with every dream [out loud] you'd never dare to breath.
    two-four.two-four. i can't breathe.
    two-four two-four. (i cannot breathe.)

    she starves for attention.
    he has hungry mouths to feed.
    dietary habits seen [to her]
    as born of apathy.
    she starves for attention.
    he has hungry mouths to feed.
    emaciated, both will dream
    of times they felt less empty.
    Sunday, December 4th, 2005
    11:41 pm
    i love how this album makes me remember every failure.

    and how i can't apologize for them.

    Current Mood: sleepy
    10:49 pm
    Well that was short lived. Xbox360 died this weekend. Hard crash to red boxes, then to scrambled screen, then to static, then to a festive red and green mosaic. Powered it down, powered it back up, and got the Red LEDs of Death on the power button. Called the 1800 xbox number and they confirmed the red leds is a hardware failure in the unit and they are sending a box for me to ship out my xbox to be serviced. We'll see what happens in a week.

    Current Mood: aggravated
    Thursday, December 1st, 2005
    2:23 pm
    A much overdue update
    So my life has taken an interesting turn since ... say this whole fucking year. I got laid off, I was unemployed, and now I have a new job. And while I really enjoy my job and it keeps me productive and busy, it has drastically put a dent in my social life. I work 7am to 3pm and this means that I get up between 5 and 530am (more towards 530 these days, damn you snooze). The 45-1hour commute generally gets me home at 430pm, that being that I actually leave work ontime, which isn't always true. The point I am trying to make, is I am completely exhausted when I get home, so I generally don't do anything during the week. And friday nights are brutal but I usually grin and bare it and sleep in forever on Saturdays.

    The point I suppose I am trying to make is that I'm pretty damn lonely these days. Perhaps it is my social anxiety perking up again. I've never had an easy time making plans, especially with people I don't know too well. I easily blow off plans, things "mysteriously" come up.. etc etc. If this has happened to you at a time we were supposed to hang out - - Social Anxiety. It sucks and I can't really explain it. An easily solution is to get drunk as that is the social lubricant of the times, but getting to the point of actually going out is trying. I sometimes have a hard time even talking on the phone to people (wonder why you always get my voicemail when you call?). Yeah. It's rough sometimes. Good thing the internet is so impersonal. I'd probably never meet people if it wasn't for the social nullification properties of a glowing screen. Which is good as well because the more i talk to people online the easier it is for me to actually talk to people in person.

    Its a rough cycle to fall in and i desperately want to get out and meet people before I go insane.

    Current Mood: working
    Friday, November 25th, 2005
    8:18 pm
    Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
    1:13 am
    i'm a geek
    so it's past 1am and I've been outside Best Buy for 5 hours, waiting inline until 6am when i'll get my xbox360. this is retarded.
    Thursday, November 17th, 2005
    9:59 pm
    So today I applied to the Graduate School of Buisness at the University of Connecticut. Pretty sure I'll have no problem getting accepted, but I do have to take GMATs. I also need to request copies of my transcripts from Wentworth for application purposes.

    Tomorrow I'm going to a strip club. Wee.

    Current Mood: sleepy
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