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    Thursday, November 10th, 2005
    9:45 pm
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    Fifteen men on a dead man's chest!
    Cutlass or pistol?
    What is the name of your pirate ship?
    Where is your secret pirate base?
    What kind of loot do you prefer?
    What do you and your crew prefer to be called?
    Parrot or monkey?
    Your capable first matekrizteen
    Your bumbling cabin boy with a heart of goldmodestmaya
    The aloof, yet honorable, pirate with a mysterious pastktrout82
    Is always the first one into the frayaneina
    Is the naval officer who ruthlessly pursues your shipburning_image
    Is the comical pirate who is always drunk on grogapril5k
    Is currently in Davy Jones's lockerfadeintofocus
    The amount of money you make as a pirate$40,581
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    8:47 pm
    I'm totally going to Europe next year.
    Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
    9:40 pm
    no excuses
    exactly. no excuses. so why the hell am i so morose right now. i feel like i am getting onto a track that is so focused on my work that my social life is suffering. and there isn't too much i can do. i don't want to be stuck inside, i'd like to have a nice girl to go out with and do fun stuff with. there are many things i'd like. but unfortunately they are either out of reach, taken, or not found. so i guess i just have to deal with it for now. hopefully all this hardwork will pay off and i'll have my own place soon. i really can't take much more of this living with my parents thing.

    i download the beta of the aim. and it has XM satellite feeds for free. so i have been listening to either the hardcore channels or emo streams. lame. maybe i should just go to bed.

    tomorrow is just another today. :\

    Current Mood: blah
    Monday, November 7th, 2005
    9:21 pm

    The forest Aflame The forest Aflame

    Only you can prevent forest fires.

    This is one of the pictures I took Sunday during my adventure in the woods.
    Sunday, November 6th, 2005
    10:02 pm
    Autumn in full effect
    Today I went exploring outside in the woods behind my house. There were some recently traveled paths (by deer and other woodland folk i would assume), and they took me all over. Eventually I ended up down near the highway near my house, and found some pretty neat stuff. Mostly stuff i would assume that had at one time or another fallen off of vehicle on the highway. There were some tvs, chairs, furniture, loads of hubcaps. Some might call it garbage, i found it to be neat. You wouldn't image there to be lots of beer cans on the side of the highway, but to my surprise, these accounted for over 80% of the cans and bottles I found. Drinkin' and Drivin' is so much fun.

    PhotographyCollapse )

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Saturday, November 5th, 2005
    6:06 pm

    Current Mood: amused
    4:04 pm
    I'm going to ignore any or all premonitions I might have. I dunno, I'm gonna stop worrying about crap and just have a good time.

    Current Mood: curious
    Friday, November 4th, 2005
    11:45 pm
    Coffee and Conversation
    So tonight Stephanie and I went out for coffee and chitchat at Borders in Waterford. As a professional stalker, it is key to pick open public areas as this creates a more comfortable scenario for meeting stalkers. And it worked. Before I knew it, the store was closing. It was an amazing time.

    Sometimes things just line up and click and the conversation just flows (good job keeping tabs on awkward silences). We talked about so much, from Italy, to work, to life, to goals. To me, this was something out of the ordinary coming from a guy usually too shy to say anything. And we talked about some fairly sensative topics, one particular being that we both lost grandfathers that we were close with. Talking and communicating is a good thing. It was all good and not one bit awkward. Aces.

    So what's the consensus? ++ which for non-computer geeks is code for increment, meaning more please. I hope for more hangings out, perhaps something different than coffee. WE SHALL SEE.

    Current Mood: chipper
    Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
    9:25 pm
    A brief history lesson
    So today while talking to Steph (stalkerz) online, I had mentioned something about going through all my journal entries from begining to end. I started reading all of them over and over, and I surely did sound like a whiny ass back then. Of course there were a lot of writings that I found again. I used to write a lot, and then something happened. I dunno, but there is a lot of poetry stuff there.

    You really do get a good picture of progress reading through it, along with a dash of self-destruction... but that hasn't changed at all. It's quite apprent back then (and maybe now) that I strive off of misery. It's a fuel for my creativity, and also my social life it seemed. Maybe everyone was a bit more depressed back then? I dunno, but as miserable as I wrote, I was constantly surrounded by good people. Weird.

    Maybe I should get back into my writing, and photography too. My camera is craving film. We'll see I guess. Fall is my favorite season, and there are lots of photo opportunities to be had.

    Remember to smile for the camera (be more cliché)

    Current Mood: calm
    Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
    9:50 pm
    I have neglected my livejournal, so I am updating this for stalkers.


    do not click thisCollapse )

    Current Mood: amused
    Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
    10:02 am

    My blog is worth $3,951.78.
    How much is your blog worth?

    Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
    12:29 pm
    OMFGCollapse )

    Current Mood: shocked
    Thursday, October 20th, 2005
    9:38 pm
    I got an extra ticket to the Deathcab for Cutie show this Saturday at Lupos in Providence if anyone is interested in going. I'll drive and pay for gas, just pay for the ticket ($30)..

    show is at 7:30, doors at 6:30
    Friday, October 14th, 2005
    2:52 pm
    Plans for tonight.

    I need them.

    Thursday, October 13th, 2005
    6:46 pm
    Deathcab for Cutie TIX, Providence
    I got an extra ticket to see DCFC at Lupos next Saturday 10/22.

    Ticket is $35 bucks, if I even decide to charge for it. Show starts at 7:30pm, doors at 6:30pm. I'll drive too.

    Seats are Mezainne (no riff raff), Row C
    Sunday, October 9th, 2005
    10:11 pm
    my weekend accomplishment
    another tattoo sketch, but unfortunately I don't have any room for it...

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    Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
    10:14 pm
    what i really need...
    besides a hole in the head is a woman who can understand my sense of humor and sarcasm, as well as dish it out. Oh, it'd be nice if that woman also had a grasp on her sanity too. Because an insane woman who likes my sense of humor just isn't fun.

    At least I know within a short amount of time if they can deal with it or not. Most buckle and flip out on me in about an hour.

    Current Mood: amused
    Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
    11:23 am
    one exteme to the other.
    Yesterday, I worked 10 hours straight. 7am - 5pm. Non-stop. No Lunch. No poo break. NOTHING.

    And today. Well today I am listening to MP3's and playing with a new wireless headset I got for my desk phone. Now I can wander around and talk on the phone like an executive asshole. FANTASTIC!

    Recent thoughts:
    Having healthy conversations with ex's is relieving, and also frustrating. but that could just be me.
    I need my oil changed.
    I need my "oil" changed.
    I want drugs. (this is odd because I havn't wanted drugs for a while... suddenly I do)
    There is defintely something missing out of my life, and I don't know what it is.
    I want to buy this book
    I need to reserve an xbox360

    Current Mood: "working"
    Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
    6:14 pm


    Current Mood: dirty
    Thursday, September 22nd, 2005
    3:57 pm
    I guess there are bored people at my work...
    PsInfo v1.63 - Local and remote system information viewer
    Copyright (C) 2001-2004 Mark Russinovich
    Sysinternals -

    System information for \\marzipan:
    Uptime: 35 days 5 hours 41 minutes 24 seconds
    Kernel version: Microsoft Windows 2000, Multiprocessor Free
    Product type: Professional
    Product version: 5.0
    Service pack: 2
    Kernel build number: 2195
    Registered organization: home star runner
    Registered owner: strongbad
    Install date: 8/17/2005, 4:42:48 PM
    Activation status: Not applicable
    IE version: 5.0100
    System root: C:\WINNT
    Processors: 2
    Processor speed: 2.9 GHz
    Processor type: Intel(R) Pentium(R) 4 CPU
    Physical memory: 504 MB
    Video driver: Intel(R) 82865G Graphics ControllerDOWS\WinSxS\Manifests\x86_Microsoft.Windows.Common-Controls_6595b64144ccf1df_6.0.2600.1643_x-ww_7c3a9bc6.Manifest

    Current Mood: working
    Monday, September 5th, 2005
    1:27 pm
    I'm not an addict...Collapse )

    Current Mood: awake
    Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
    7:22 pm
    new tattoo-age
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    Current Mood: ouch
    Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
    6:43 pm
    Monday, August 15th, 2005
    10:49 pm
    A tale of debt and adventure.
    So I traded in my Jetta today. Picked up a 2005 VW GTI 1.8T Manual Transmission. I don't know why I got an automatic before, manuals are so much fun to drive. It took me a whole 2 minutes to remember how to drive stick. Dealer took me to an empty parking lot to get used to the clutch, and then I was off. Had so much fun driving it. I take delivery of it on Wednsday. The whole thing worked out pretty well. I got more than my car was worth for the trade in, got a bunch of discounts and dealer cash, and also qualified for 2.9% financing. All in All my monthly payment is 40 bucks more.

    This is all good because my transmission is starting to slip on the jetta, so it's only a matter of time before the whole damn transmission goes. And my warrenty is up in 2 months. So I make out. Yay.

    Current Mood: excited
    Monday, August 1st, 2005
    12:34 am
    I'm a star
    So this weekend I was in a music video for my friends band. The original guy they had lined up for the part fell through so my buddy called me and asked if I wanted to be in it. I was kinda hesitant at first because I've never done any acting on any level, but the more I thought about, the more excited I was. It was a lil bit akward being surrounded by the lighting and whatnot, but when it came down to it, it was all very natural. They were awesome people, really nice, and really made the effort to make sure I was feeling comfortable with the whole thing since I kinda just got tossed into it.

    The whole video thing aside, it was cool hanging with my old buddy Nick. We grew up together in East Lyme, but then when my Mom moved to Montville we started falling apart and seeing each other less. By the time we were both in High school we didnt see each other at all but still kept in touch online. We talked about last night, that it had been almost 10 years since the last time we hung out.

    All in all it was an awesome weekend. The video is going through post-production in the upcoming weeks, a final product will probably be done in about a month or so... maybe longer since they are also working on a European tour.

    Click here to check out the bands myspace page. The song the video was to was 'Envy' which you can listen to on the page.

    P.S. I got to play satan in a suit in the video :)

    Current Mood: tired
    Sunday, July 24th, 2005
    10:33 pm
    Welcome to the beat down
    ouchCollapse )

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
    10:59 am
    So I'm in Syracuse visiting Daemian, George, Joe and one of our other friends from Canada was visiting. So we went out, got some food, had some beers and shots, and then we head home. Daemian slaps his gfs ass and this other girl in a group passing by gets all femnazi on us. About how that isn't right blah blah blah. Just being a total bitch. So Daemian being the asshole he is takes a picture of her. The dudes that are with her flip out and rush us. Turns into about 12 on 5. we layed out a few guys but at one point I had 4 dude wailing on my head. Someone called the cops and we all ran into Damos apt. I have a black eye, a cut above my eye, a bruised nose, and my ear is all black and blue. My jaw hurts too. Pics to follow at somepoint.
    Thursday, July 14th, 2005
    9:11 pm
    Monday, July 11th, 2005
    11:45 pm
    Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
    2:11 pm
    every once and a while, i draw
    I drew a new tattoo idea today...

    but i can't draw leaves to save my lifeCollapse )

    Current Mood: accomplished
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